I quit one of my jobs on Sunday. I was apologetic for the short (as in NO) notice, but explained that I simply can’t work in the hospital environment any more. I get too stressed out, and my anxiety makes me vulnerable to making mistakes. I can’t afford mistakes when I’m going to be in a master’s program in five months.
It was a strange feeling to realize that middle age really does begin imposing limits. I was thinking that the limits were mostly physical, and that I could stave them off for quite a while by just keeping flexible, active, agile. Nope. Just like broken bones don’t heal as well in our forties as they did in our twenties, the beating the emotions and psyche take don’t heal as well in our forties either.
Interestingly, both of the house supervisors that I spoke with agreed that the hospital environment there is…extreme. In fact that is a quote from one of them. Both wished me luck and said it was the hospital’s loss. There would have been a time when I would have agreed, but not today. I think it is best for both me and for the hospital I do not work there.
The garden is winding down; the temperature in the day is in the 80’s but our first frost date is estimated for the 29th. That’s not nearly enough time for anything that’s not already ripening to finish; I’ll probably get out there and begin pulling plants for the composter later this week. NOT a great year for the garden. Since this was the first year I actually got a Thai hot plant to grow, let alone fruit, I may put that into a pot and bring it in for the winter.
I have a feeling it will be a more powerful than usual Samhain.