Jared is a trailbreaker.

All the news media regarding the shooting, and the salacious drama endlessly paraded by pundits, really misses the point.  Jared wasn’t alone, and isn’t alone.  Not in Arizona, and not in the world.  He merely chose to do something that would make him internationally known; most merely turn their rage and hopelessness on themselves or their families.

Some people simply don’t want to work, want the system to support them, and will do whatever it takes to manipulate the welfare system into supporting them.  These are not the people I am speaking of, nor do I wish to speak of them now.  They are another entity entirely.

I’ve blogged before about the crisis here in Arizona regarding psychiatric services and how that affects delivery of service via the emergency room.  I’ve explained about ‘psych holds’ and how they often spend days awaiting transfer to a psych facility.  Some of these are people already in the ‘system’ so to speak, who are clients of the contracted psychiatric services but many are new.  They were surviving, hanging on, until the economic crisis and stresses of it pushed them over the edge.  They lose their jobs then their marriages; a consequence of being a citizen of Arizona is that often there is no other family within five hundred miles, so the loss of spousal support means the loss of the only emotional support available.  These people are used to taking care of themselves.  The idea of needing help is foreign, and they don’t know how to navigate the system to get any sort of assistance, whether health care or psychiatric care. In the end they simply punish themselves for their own failure to ‘beat’ the system.

Another new thing is that domestic violence seems to be getting more violent; I could be wrong but it seems to me that we are seeing more cases of extreme violence coming to the emergency rooms (and morgues) as traumas — gunshot wounds, stabbings, beatings not just with fists but with bats. This too I attribute to the stresses of our present economic situation.

So what does that have to do with Jared?  Well, a lot, actually.  While I detest the thought of giving him any more notoriety, he is a symbol of what’s happening.  He is intelligent, perhaps beyond average.  He is well read and reads literature that provokes independent thought.  He challenges the ideas thrust upon us by media regarding the proper ways to think, behave, eat, consume.  He appears to have been a sensitive individual who did not have the emotional reserves to simply hunker down and try to fit in, to prostitute his psyche in exchange for a job and a paycheck.  He sees that the system is dreadfully broken.  All this is common to many of the people who come to the emergency room in emotional crisis.  They are perhaps less articulate than he was, but they share the same despair and frustration.  They simply turned it on themselves rather than others, and so remain invisible to our society at large; indeed, they may have even further damaged their chances at ‘beating’ the system because our society frowns on emotional weakness, which is still how psychiatric diagnoses are viewed, as though they are personal failings, and therefore are less likely to get a chance to get a leg up.

It is a measure of the broken-ness of our society that unmannered and violent yet attractive young women from New Jersey, with far too much money and far too little common sense, education, and decorum, are touted as models for our young people.  It is a measure of our broken-ness that Justin Bieber is a model for young people. In some ways I am reminded of Galadriel in Tolkein’s saga.  When Frodo offers her the ring of power, she considers the offer and what she will become.  She says that all will look on her beauty; they will love her and despair.  Perhaps the dedicated watchers of the New Jersey girls look on them and despair in the same way.

Beware, though.  Those that watch are also learning valuable lessons on how to break the rules to get what they want.  As people become more cognizant of the fact that what our society has fed them regarding their chances to make it big is nothing but lies, they’ll be less and less afraid to act out.  And in a world of twitter and facebook, they’ll not all turn it in.

The end of an era.

I have come to the disturbing conclusion, bubbling below the surface of my consciousness for months and causing great mental distress, that my place of employment has passed its days of greatness.  The things – no, the thing – that made my employer unique is simply gone, and it left with the retirement of the previous president and CEO.  Sadly, even though it’s a non profit, it is run increasingly like a for profit institution and words like ‘throughput’ ‘efficiency’ ‘customer service’ ‘market share’ and more are on the lips of more and more people there.  The people at the top, who are supposed to have a clue, are completely out of touch with what transpires on a daily basis in the very departments that effect the raison de etre for the facility.  It really makes me sad.

It’s truly a sad thing when a mid level boss has to actually conduct a study and gather data to prove it’s not his department that is causing the holdup.  It’s a truly sad thing when admitted patients sit in the ED for hours because the floors have sent staff home because of lack of patient load and in the interests of ‘fiscal responsibility’. It’s even sadder when patients sit in triage for hours waiting because the beds they need are filled with patients who are already admitted and can’t be moved.

How can we seriously talk about ‘throughput’ when we’re talking about human lives?  Or market share?  Or efficiency?  People aren’t products!   We don’t manufacture people, we care for them, and those words seriously shouldn’t even be in the same paragraph as human medical treatment.  Any time you talk about efficiency when speaking of medical care you are talking about cutting staff and essential services in the interests of the bottom line, and don’t let anyone fool you into believing differently.  And I’m sorry, but the best way to give good customer service is to STAFF APPROPRIATELY AT ALL TIMES.  There’s simply no other way to do it.  Making people do more with less means that more errors will occur, and more lawsuits will ultimately come for the simple reason that workers are overstressed and hurried.  It’s a hard enough job to do with compassion and personal efficiency.  What’s more, staff are human. The entire efficiency model is based on a debunked paradigm of humanity and the world as machines.
Trying to make nurses and techs work harder than they already do is a losing proposition.

There are several areas in the public sphere that really, honestly, should NEVER be left to a capitalist persuasion.  Life safety — OSHA, fire service, police, emergency medical services; welfare — trash, sewage, water, electricity; medical care — nursing, medicine, hospitalization, doctoring.  Any time it becomes a for profit career or institution it becomes corrupted.  Or at least in modern times, thanks to corporatism, have become corrupted.  Perhaps in the past the corruption was less simply because the sphere of influence was less.

All I have to say is that the economy better hold out til I get my graduate degree completed.

It’s not just me, apparently.

I have been battling a feeling of hopelessness and depression for probably a year — my spouse hasn’t worked a full time job in well over a year, I took a pay and hour cut at my job (though I got the hours back), the team atmosphere has been destroyed by a combination of upper management deliberate decisions and ineffectual middle management support for us line people, I’m legally committed to my job because they’re paying for my bachelor’s degree, I happen to work on the shift with a few truly nasty individuals, and so on.  And then there are the ‘customers’.  Things are getting desperate out there folks, and I see it in the people I come into contact with.  And it rubs off on me.

So knowing if I lost my job we were probably screwed, I’ve been quite the unhappy person.  If I had felt that I could leave, if I had another steady job lined up, I probably wouldn’t have felt so sad or trapped.  If my husband had steady work rather than here and there I also probably wouldn’t have felt as though the weight of the world (ours anyway) was on my shoulders.  If if if.   The problem with being depressed or with feeling trapped and the depression it brings, and the stress, is that you really aren’t capable of seeing things with any positive sort of spin.

I sort of woke up recently; I will have my bachelor’s degree by June at the latest.  I will go to speak with an admissions counselor at the university where I want to get my advanced degree in another week or so.  I will have my application submitted, if the counselor tells me I have a chance in he!! of getting in (at $65 a pop, I want to know my chances first), by the 15th of January.  And I will probably need to drop to part time in order to do well in my classes; this part scares the crap out of me but by part time I mean one day every other week will need to be dropped — my job still considers that to be full time but it still scares me to lose that much money.  However the stress level drop just from that will definitely do wonders for my quality of school work and my emotional state, which is also something to take into consideration.

My husband is working fairly regularly now, although he does not have a permanent position by any means.  That takes a load off me; even if we don’t use his pay for anything but stuffing the mattress, figuratively speaking, it means I am not solely responsible for our bills.

My middle son and his S.O. have made some changes to their lives; he has completed some education and is waiting for his license to be able to apply for jobs in his field.  She has taken a second part time job, which helps to keep them afloat while he waits.  My oldest son has moved back to Idaho and lives with his girlfriend and her father; they save money by combining households since she hasn’t been able to find a job since she graduated from college.

But, on to the reason for my post.  I read an article by Business News Daily recently and suddenly felt much better, about my situation and about life generally.  You see, I’m not alone.  I’m not the only one feeling as though the people in charge at work are completely out of touch, that they only ask us for our opinions (even though they NEVER act on anything suggested other than stupid little things) simply so there isn’t mass revolt because, after all, they are asking us how we feel and think…it’s most people.  Corporate Amerika sucks.  Like we didn’t already know that, but the corporations have really used the economy to their advantage and put the screws to their workers — who are, after all the reason their business works — because they know the workers fear losing their jobs.

I don’t know how smart it will be to incur more student loan debt, but I do plan to pursue my advanced degree because it’s the only way I’ll be able to work independently and make at least some of my own decisions.  I won’t make any more money, after the payments for the loans kick in, but at least I’ll not be going backward.  And I’ll have some degree of freedom.  Which is the key to avoiding depression, hopelessness, and a lot (not all, but a lot) of stress.

I’m hopeful about the new year.

The failure of healthcare hits close to home

Several months ago I linked to an article in one of my state’s newspapers which outlined the difficulty retirees and people on Medicare are having getting doctors to accept Medicare assignments; patients are traveling as many as 100 miles to go to the doctor down in Phoenix because they can’t get seen by a doctor locally.

Well, there’s of course more to that story.  Realistically, none of those doctors has violated any law; they have simply begun telling patients that they will be happy to continue to see them — if they pay up front and deal with getting reimbursed from Medicare themselves.  Which of course patients are NOT willing to do.  I really think most people think Medicare is free  for them and that somehow mentally translates into meaning that the care is given for free.  Which of course is not true; health care is one of the biggest industries in this country.  Or, alternatively, people think they’ve earned it and that they should be entitled to all the health care they desire since they paid taxes while they were working.  I don’t think they stop to realize that pretty much, financially speaking, they paid for about one to two years worth of Medicare costs, if they have a chronic illness, and after that they’re getting health care based on MY (and your) tax dollars.  Theirs are already spent.

What does that mean in terms of doctors and Medicare assignments?  Well, it means that Medicare, being the biggest provider of health care payments in the nation, has the ability to set the standards for what and how much they’ll pay for something.  It also means that since they’re federally funded, there’s no recourse if you don’t get paid promptly, or at all, for a service you’ve provided – in some cases years ago.  And this lies at the crux of the doctor/patient problem.  Doctors aren’t willing to go months or even years without getting paid for services.  Since they’ve had to hire an entire staff devoted to simply dealing with Medicare and other health insurance companies — they all get on the bandwagon of what they see Medicare get away with regarding not just what and how much they’ll cover, but the bureaucracy as well — they simply can’t afford to continue to wait to get paid when they have to pay staff as well as malpractice insurance and their own bills.  Medicare has become quite adept at making the hoops a provider must jump through flaming and moving, with vague standards that are seemingly changeable at the whim of the claims processor (and the day of the week) which means that most claims must be sent in at least three times before Medicare will accept the claim (and this takes months to even get to this point) and months more before the claim will be paid out.

To make matters worse, because Medicare is functionally insolvent (because at this point our government is as well) they have an entire staff devoted to reviewing previous claims already paid out, and if they find ANYTHING  wrong with the original documentation, they make the provider pay back, with interest, (not to mention paying a fine for fraudulent submissions) the money already paid out.  Several hospitals I am aware of are now facing this even though some of the hospitalizations were two years ago.  This means that hospitals are having to hire entire staffs as well, to review all documentation dealing with any patient encounter, in order to prove they were entitled to the money.  Which means that an already financially strained system is being strained even more.  Co-incidentally, it means that nursing documentation on patient condition, which used to be mainly useful only for legal protection purposes, is now vitally important to the patient record as a whole; nurses may document something about the patient’s condition or response to treatment that makes the whole hospitalization justifiable even to Medicare where it might not be justifiable based merely on lab results or doctor reports.

These two are mainly why doctors are no longer accepting Medicare assignment.  They simply can’t face the possibility that, even if/when they DO get paid, they will have to face giving the money back at some point down the road.  If they make the patients responsible for payment up front, and the patient has to do the time consuming and redundant and frustrating work of trying to get reimbursed, the patients will also end up being responsible for paying that same money back (not sure about the fines or interest though).  The final reason providers are no longer accepting Medicare assignment is that reimbursement is set to go down another 20% (at last check) as of May 2011.  Many providers are barely covering expenses if they are in a solo or group practice (another financial incentive to work for a corporate group) and the reduction in eventual payment means it’s simply not worth it for them to accept Medicare.

This last reason is important because whatever Medicare does, other health insurance companies, as previously stated, follow.  This means that other insurance companies will feel free to also reduce their payments.  And they already play the game of endless refusal of payment as we know.

This hits close to home in several ways.   I was at a HAM radio function with my husband recently and was asked by one of the other members if I knew of any jobs available at my hospital.  I was puzzled and asked why, as this guy is not a nurse, nor is anyone in his family.  He replied that one of his neighbors is a nurse at our local facility and isn’t able to make ends meet on his take home pay — because of low admissions, he gets sent home early too many days and doesn’t get a full paycheck.  This is because these patients can’t or won’t pay up front to be seen by a local doctor and travel to Phoenix for their doctor visits.  It also means that if they see their doctor down there, he’s going to refer them to a hospital that is local to HIM/HER, not local to the patient…which means that our local facility, which just built a satellite hospital to accommodate our growing population, sits more than half empty a great portion of the time, and what staffing they have doesn’t have enough work (patients) to justify their presence.  The only patients that get admitted locally come from the emergency room visits, for the most part.  This is NOT a good thing in many ways.  First, it means that our hospital may end up being closed or declaring bankruptcy, which means we won’t even have a local facility to go to.  Second, it hurts the local economy by taking the available dollars to spend by employees down further, and forces them to move to other areas in order to have steady employment.  This of course has a fall down effect in that every other business that depends on those employees is hurt further and may end up closing.

The second effect this has had is that local urgent cares and doctor’s offices are doing the same with private health insurance as well — if they can’t count on being paid at all, let alone in a timely manner, they simply aren’t going to accept insurance.  My friend went to the urgent care recently and was told that they no longer accept her insurance — in fact, didn’t even have a record of her insurance company existing on their records (never mind that it’s a state funded insurance company for small businesses, never mind that she’s already used this insurance at this urgent care before) and that, if she wanted to be seen there, she needed to pay for the full cost of her visit up front and submit herself for reimbursement. Her husband said that while they were waiting to get checked in, before they were told this, that six other people were told the same thing at the window…which tells me they are simply moving to a cash up front business model.

This is a destructive strategy in so many ways!  First of all, I don’t think there are enough people left in my area who have the couple hundred dollars to plop down for an unexpected expense that they will be able to continue to operate at present capacity, if at all.  Second of all, if people even do have the money stashed away for this, they won’t have the money for other expenses and other businesses lose out.  Ultimately, this is frankly a suicidal way of doing business.  The only positive thing I could perhaps see coming out of this turn of events is that providers lower their rates in order to draw in business, much the same way as all the cosmetic/elective surgery providers have been doing for the past couple of years in the Phoenix area.  Hey, if you want Lasik, now’s the time!  It’s never been cheaper!  I don’t know of too many people who are willing to lay out that kind of cash, no matter how cheap, if they’re not even sure they’ll have a job in six months though…but what happens when doctors lower their rates is that they fire staff, do more themselves, and reduce their contribution to the economy further both by reducing staff/services and by the knock on effect of creating further unemployment and increased job INsecurity.

I knew this was coming, I just didn’t know it would be so soon!

One of the doctors I work with says that the two groups who need to be given full government funded health care are the mentally ill and children.  The mentally ill, because they CAN be productive members of society if they are kept on their meds and kept cared for (not locked up, just helped out) and because when they are in crisis, they cost MUCH more than maintenance would have.  And children, because they don’t have the ability to choose for themselves, and also because a child given a healthy start is a more productive member of society as an adult.  I think that would be a great thing myself, if there were some way to overcome the inherent prejudices against both groups.  The mentally ill, because at least in this state it’s somehow implied that it’s a moral failure to have a true mental illness, and children, because it seems that the kids are blamed for their parents having the audacity to have children if they’re poor (never mind that those same people don’t want to fund birth control).

Like it or not, we need to begin CIVIL discussions about rationing of health care on a federal level.  Call them death panels, call them whatever you want, we need them.  We simply cannot continue to provide the level of care we provide now, with no attention paid to preventative care, without some attention paid to responsible stewardship of a limited resource (limited by funds, not by anything else).  We need to have these discussions now, before circumstance and ideology force unpleasant choices on us all.

Taking a Break

I’ve been in school non stop since January 4. I have a new class every five weeks — one ends on Sunday the next class starts on Monday. I’m burned out. And my house is starting to look like those houses in that TV show “Hoarders”….

So I emailed my advisor and asked her to withdraw me from my new class that starts next Monday. I just can’t do this any more! Enough is enough already!

I’m not going to be lazing around though. I plan to clean house, re-arrange the looms and spinning stuff, and study for my Certified Emergency Nurse exam. And work overtime. We have two nurses out on maternity leave, and I can pick up as much overtime as I can handle (which isn’t nearly as much as is available). I figure one extra day every two weeks is enough. No more four days off but I guess that’s the price I pay for wanting to pay off bills while I can still get the extra shifts.

Oh yeah. And preserve all the fruit I’ll have coming in.

Independence Days Update

Planted:

1.  tomatoes — Borghese, Ida gold, Black Krim, and Amish Candy Cherries. Also a mystery tomato plant I didn’t label.  I still have pomodoro to go in the ground; I ran out of steam before I ran out of tomatoes.

2.  peppers — California Wonder green peppers, Marconi reds.  Yeah, yeah, I know the CA wonders are hybrids…I had the seeds, and we use a LOT of peppers in a year.  I want to make sure we have enough without buying them when they’re on sale and freezing them like we have in years past.  And I’m hoping the Marconi’s will produce much better than they did last year (which is not at all).

3.  bunching onions

4.  collard greens

5.  yams

6.  mystery squash that sprouted in the compost (acorn?  butternut?  pumpkin?)

7.  lima beans, the cowpeas didn’t survive the late frost.

I had quite a scare when planting the peppers; I dug a hole with my hands and screamed bloody murder when a toad hopped out of the hole!  Gloves on and hand spade after that for this girl.

I planted garlic but the bulbs are old; they’re from what I got last spring.  I’ll give it a couple days and if they don’t sprout by Monday I’ll grab some from our harvest stores.

I built three new beds over the last two weeks; this was the first.  I built it while Mr. TF was napping  — our bedroom is above this bed and I am simply amazed he slept through the work! I would like to plant either chiles or tomatoes in this but I need to extend the fence around this part of the front yard first.  I’m not sharing any more of my stuff with javelinas, thank you!

Not a good picture due to the shade, but my little fig tree is LOVING being in the ground!  It’s leafing out like mad, and I hope it grows some as well.  It’s too young to hope for figs, but next year I hope to get a little crop.  I planted peas around the base, hoping they’ll give it a little nitrogen boost as they grow.

These are the other two new beds.  I built the farther one yesterday.  Mr. Tin Foil helped with putting soil and manure into it as it took me much longer than I had expected, due to needing to dig out weeds, fill in holes from the potatoes last year, and pull weeds.  The closer one has potatoes of various sorts, mystery squash, and collard greens.  The farther one has yams so far.  I am considering putting tomatoes in there as well; the yam vines will help retain moisture at the roots I am hoping.  The cut up barrels are what I grew potatoes in last year; I have volunteer potatoes in the closest one and I am considering using the others to grow strawberries maybe next year; I may also just move them closer to the fence and grow my cucumbers and zucchetta in them.  I have a ready made trellis in the fence, why not use it?

All of the new beds have weed cloth at the base, cardboard above that, manure, and soil mix.  I bought bags and bags of manure to compliment my compost because we simply don’t produce enough to replace what we use via the plants every year (yet).  I need to buy still more, and probably 8 or 10 bags more of soil for the further plans for expansion.  I think that was part of my problem last year; I didn’t have enough organic matter in the new beds and my harvest suffered as a result (like the peppers never growing, for instance).

Tomorrow is another weaving class, and a mandatory training session for work in the evening.  So this is my last day of vacation.  I ended up with eight days of consecutive time off, which is more than I’ve had in I think the last three years.  I’m not ready to go back, but I have had a chance to evaluate my source of discontent.  Part of it is, quite simply, I get no time to spend with my friends and family in spiritual communion or even just friendly togetherness.  I work on every coffee meet, I work most of our holidays, and I work most regular holidays too.  That and the fact that my weekend with three days in a row (Friday, Saturday, and Sunday) literally takes me two weeks to recover from because of how my schedule works.  I dread those weekends.  I need to either drop one of those days entirely or I need to reschedule one of them for a different day, if at all possible.  I have developed a greater and greater stress, frustration and exhaustion with my job since my schedule was changed to this schedule, when I was still working the mid shift, and it’s only continued to worsen even with changing to days.  Going back to school certainly hasn’t helped matters, either….

I have my yearly evaluation coming up probably as soon as I go back on Friday.  I’m not anticipating anything great, but at least now I have had time to meditate, and to meditate on my reasons for discontent, and to try to find solutions.

A completely gratuitous photo of my granddaughter; her parents came out to our campsite to visit while we were camping and we went on a short hike.  She’s a perfect little tree elf!

The creek and canyon across from our campsite.  There’s a cattle trail next to the creek, and we walked a little way along that with the kids and baby.  She really loved being outside!  She was fascinated by the water.

It was very good getting to basically spend the weekend with friends and family I don’t see nearly often enough.  I hope we’ll be able to do this more; I hope things work out for me at work so we can.

Using up our reserves

As a society, I mean.  We see more and more psych patients every month, it seems.  The only good news is that recently they’ve been moving out within 24 hours of coming in.  The bad news is that these are mainly newcomers to the system; they are simply people who are used to everything being handed to them, and they simply can’t deal with the reality that it is becoming more obvious as time goes on, that there’s no real safety net.  There’s no one who will carry them when they choose to sit down, or when they fall down.

I took care of a patient recently who was brought in by EMS because she attempted suicide by overdosing on prescription sleep and anxiety pills.  She didn’t succeed, and so she took more.  She still didn’t succeed, so she called 911.  When they brought her in they also brought a multipage suicide letter she had written to her parents and family with her.  Oy.

I just, try as I might, can’t have anything more than civility to people like that.  Poor me.  Life isn’t fair.  You didn’t love me enough.  I’m not getting enough sympathy.  She actually told me she wanted sympathy from me.  I was truly incredulous and responded “for what?” before the filter switched on.  Really, being sympathetic isn’t part of my job.  Compassion, yes, when warranted.  Civility and politeness, yes, always.  Sympathy, no.   This isn’t anything new for me, when I was working full time as a paramedic I was the same way.  Full grown adults who are essentially throwing temper tantrums in an attempt to get attention and their own way really piss me off.

My patient was crying (again, or still) because we wouldn’t let her go to the bathroom alone.  Well, we’re not supposed to, until you have been deemed stable enough to go alone.  She told me she ‘just had a bad couple of days’ and she wanted sympathy.  I felt like telling her:   And this makes you different from everyone else in this emergency room, including multiple staff members, HOW???

Another recent psych patient was a young adult male.  He also thought he was going to get sympathy and threw a temper tantrum (as did my patient, I won’t go into detail, but we ended up with multiple security guards at the bedside and leathers outside the door in reserve) on several occasions.  Why do adults think they’ll get their way if they throw a temper tantrum?  Didn’t their parents teach them it doesn’ t work?

I really attribute this to our failing society.  We have had an entitlement culture for nearly 50 years.  People simply assume the govt will bail them out if they get into trouble.  And unfortunately, we have done that for a generation or more.

Don’t get me wrong.  I AM for health care for all — at least for basic preventative care, including dental.  But come on — bucking for a disability check at 20 something years old, AND GETTING IT, because you don’t want to work — is just wrong.  Unless you’re truly one of the very small percentage of people who are, genuinely and permanently, mentally ill, you don’t belong on disability.

The doctor caring for my patient thinks we should send all these patients to Africa — where people have real problems and are too worried about feeding themselves to whine about how their parents were too hard on them and didn’t love them enough.  I tend to agree.  We have the highest living standard in the world yet we have more psych patients than anyone in the world as well.  We have the highest use of oxycontin and antidepressants.  We have the highest ratings of self scored unhappiness.  I could be wrong but I also think we have the highest amount of stupid reality TV shows as well.  Do people really watch those?  Is that why they’re so pissed off that they can’t have everything?

We’re spending dollars we can’t afford on patients like this, while we can’t afford to help people just get ahead or even break even.  We can’t afford preventative care that would keep people out of the hospital.  We can’t afford to give children an actual education that would give them the critical thinking skills they’ll need, nor the actual physical skills of caring for themselves by gardening, cooking, or whatever but we can pay for people who just want to have temper tantrums.

We’re reliving the last days of the Roman Empire.

State of the State: Arizona

Well, the news is not good.

Arizona faces a $3 billion dollar budget shortfall, which is 30% of the budget.

Our governor, Jan Brewer, thinks we should cut services to the poorest and most vulnerable in the state — AHCCCS (medicaid) and mental health services recipients.  The total of people who would be affected by this is nearly 450,000.  Nearly 400,000 adults, some 36,000 children, and some 36,000 mental health patients.  Now, where are these people going to go when they need care?  To the emergency rooms, of course, where they are not required to pay any money up front (and won’t pay at all ever).  Where there is already a hemorrhage of funds in every hospital.  It is going to mean more hospitals frankly shutting down their emergency departments out of self preservation and only accepting patients with private health insurance for direct admits from doctors and prescheduled surgery services.  It will mean more layoffs in the health care sector as hospitals cut staff.  It will mean more lawsuits filed against hospitals for nosocomial infections which are directly linked to staffing levels, further undermining funds available to actually provide care.

The coming cuts in Medicare and Medicaid payments to doctors by 22% after already reducing them by about 15% is going to mean a crisis of health care for the poor in this country; my own area of Prescott made the news recently because retirees can’t find a doctor who will accept Medicare.  Some of these people travel over 130 miles one way to Phoenix and stay overnight just to see their doctors, because there are no local doctors willing to see them unless they pay cash.  The doctors interviewed said that they still see the patients they’ve had in their client list who are on medicare but aren’t accepting any new patients due to the hassle with reimbursement thanks to the confusing rules from our esteemed government, the length of time it takes to get reimbursed versus private insurance, and the lesser amounts paid for the same services.  These people as well end up in the emergency rooms because they can’t get seen for things that should be taken care of by a primary care doctor, further overloading an already breaking system.

These cuts will have even farther reaching consequences than many realize; more than a few doctors — our experienced and competent ones — are nearing retirement age.  These doctors will simply retire rather than deal with the increased hassle.  At my emergency room, there are four doctors I can think of right now who will simply retire when the cuts take place.  They can afford to.  This means we will lose nearly half of our present physician staff; the ones who are left are for the most part brand new and relatively inexperienced.  It also means they will either be working many, many more hours or we will be seriously understaffed, leading to increased waiting times for patients to be seen and an increase in critical incidents in those patients due to wait times.

Our fire services are facing serious budget problems; tax revenues are in the toilet as they are everywhere but here it is a particular problem.  Many fire services have operated in a deficit thinking that next year’s revenues would cover this year’s expenses and have done this for years.  The last two fire departments I worked for were in this trap and had been told for years by the county comptroller that one day they simply might not be allowed to do that any more — that their budgets would not be approved by the county board of supervisors — which would mean they would simply be shut down.  The City of Phoenix, which five years ago had the biggest hiring spree in their history is now facing laying off as many as 500 employees according to the rumors I hear swirling around.  This means that anyone hired since then is up for layoff.

The police are just as bad off; the speed cameras which were to go away soon I think will be staying and even possibly expanded.  The City of Phoenix has instituted taking reports only for many types of property crimes that were formerly investigated by an officer due to lack of staff.

Taxes are going up in all categories; there will be both a state and a local food tax instituted in the near future, at least in the larger metropolitan areas.  Property taxes are going up while tax valuations are going down; our own taxes went up by nearly $100 while our assessed valuation dropped by over $4000 dollars.

There are abandoned properties everywhere I look; two of my coworkers moved into a new subdivision on the outskirts of metropolitan Phoenix; their houses are the only ones actually completed.  None of the others have been touched in nearly a year.  I would guess that they won’t be either.  On my own street there are homes that haven’t been lived in since 2004.  If anyone is paying taxes I don’t know.  Out by my farmer friends I counted 12 vacant properties just directly on the roads leading to their house; if that’s any indication than fully 40% of the properties out there are abandoned, foreclosed on, or simply vacant.

My farmer friends are in a monetary crisis; they were able to get their long standing mortgage re worked, but they still haven’t been able to make payments in months.  They literally have no income.  His business hasn’t had a new account since before Christmas and his father’s business has also been extremely slow.  He has tried to find work but there simply isn’t any to be had, and being away from the farm means chores will fall on her directly and solely.  She has also tried to find work but, having been a stay at home wife and mother since the late 80′s no one is apparently willing to take a chance on her even as a night shift clerk at a grocery store.  They are feeding their animals through donations from the local food banks of produce that is too old to give to people, and by taking in even more animals for boarding on the condition that the boarders provide extra food for their own animals.

Reading Craig’s list for my local area is a litany of sorrow.  The listing of free animals, the sales of entire households of belongings, it goes on and on.

I don’t think it will get better.  I don’t think we can go on this way for much longer either.  I am crossing over into fantasy land here, but I really wish Obama would have simply given each home owner the cash to pay off their mortgage rather than giving it to the banks.  It would have gone to the banks, same as it did, but it would have actually benefited a large portion of our citizens as well as the banks.  Ah, but there’s the rub.  We’re not citizens, we’re consumers…and no body cares about consumers unless they have money to spend.

The value of judgment

Since starting back to school, I have been on an accelerated schedule.  Each class lasts just five weeks but crams 16 weeks worth of information into each one.  This has meant that I’m spending a lot of time doing school work as I have two discussion questions and a paper due  each week.  Doing this post keeps me in the same spot, but is different than doing school work.  Thankfully. My brain hurts.

I worked on the ambulance recently and was dispatched to an area ED to take a patient to an in patient psych facility for suicidal ideation.  Fine, no problem, we do this all the time.  When I got there, I received the history from the nurse caring for the patient.  It seems she had remarked to the doctor that she just wanted to put a gun to her head and end it all, that she screwed up everything she tried, and that everyone would be better off without her.  She had access to a gun at home, so this was not just idle conversation.  Well, OK.  That will definitely buy you some time to cool off in a controlled environment.

What happened next is that the nurse also proceeded to inform me that she had two small children at home, under the age of two.  I remarked that well, yes, and killing her self would be SOOO much better for her children than having their mother (however much of a screwup she might think she is) around, that knowing their mother killed herself would be great for them.  The nurse gave me a rather surprising response:  “WE don’t make judgments!”  Well, yes in fact we do…or we would not have made the judgment that she was in danger of hurting herself, of putting her children in danger, and therefore went through the effort of placing her somewhere that she could hopefully get help.  This was not a chronic ‘abuser’ of the system, this was a young mother in a situation where she felt overwhelmed and without resources.  You may think my response was inappropriate, but it wasn’t without compassion for either her or her children.  I guess I just don’t understand the reasoning that leaving one’s children motherless is better than having a flawed, caring mother.

This idea of being non judgmental I have come to believe is killing our society.  Of course we judge!  And we should!  Else how will people with a temporary down in their lives be helped back up?  Of course we judge!  Otherwise people who steal wouldn’t go to jail.  Of course we judge!

What has happened is that the concept of judgment has been rolled in (at least in mental health and health care circles) with the idea of condemnation.  And this has led to the idea, perfectly framed by the above nurse, that we don’t judge.  Utter nonsense.  We don’t condemn. This idea seems to have spilled over into society generally.  Both in the job that I do, and by virtue of being a clergy person in a minority religion, I have seen more than my fair share of people who really have no social or interpersonal skills, who are downright self destructive in their determination to be nonconformist, who use that word ‘judge’ as a bat to beat anyone who points that out to them.  Now of course, if one is pointing it out when the comment is not solicited, and the person is not in a position to require said pointing out, it is naturally inappropriate and unwanted.  However, when said person is in the ED due to self destructive behaviors, or asking for counseling type help due to the same self destructive behaviors, then it is both solicited and appropriate.

Judgment entails an idea of the ethical and moral basis for living in society.  For instance, I personally happen to believe that, if you are strong enough, mature enough, and well adjusted enough, then a group marriage is possible.  I personally am not enough of any of those things, and neither is my husband, and therefore since we know we are not, we choose not to have a marriage that encompasses more than the two of us.  However, neither of us condemns anyone who realistically and honestly evaluates themselves and their situation and seeks out that sort of marriage.  We know of couples that made it work for more than twenty years.  We also, however, know a couple that we married in the service of our clergy duties, who successfully managed to destroy a marriage of nearly a decade in less than a year because they didn’t do that evaluation of themselves before they opened up their home and marriage.  They not only destroyed their marriage, they lost their home, their business, and forced their child into the loss of both his parents in the home together.  Am I making a judgment?  You bet.  Just because you like the idea of something doesn’t mean it’s practical or a good idea.

We judge, perhaps unfairly, the pot smokers.  Well, it is (presently) illegal, but is it immoral?  Is it unethical?  Does the doing of it hurt themselves or their families?  Naturally, if they get caught and go to jail it does, but I’m speaking of purely the actual use of the drug.  I’m not going to pass a negative judgment on it, nor will I condemn it.  I really can’t see a problem in a personal choice.

A nurse condemned me not too long ago in the comments section of another blog for *gasp* passing judgment on some people on welfare and food stamps, saying I was a discredit to my profession by making judgments because we as nurses do not pass judgment.  Ah, sorry, as the condemnation shows, we both can and do, quite often against members of our own profession, whom we hold to much higher standards than the people we care for (showing perhaps just how little some of us really do value our clients…?).  Well, sorry, but if you can afford acrylic nails, you can afford food.  If you have a nicer phone than me, you can afford food.  If your diamond is bigger than mine (which doesn’t take much but I got exactly what I wanted) you can afford food.  Now, you may not be able to afford takeout, you may not be able to afford premade frozen food, but frankly your priorities are messed up if your phone and nails and jewelry mean more to you than feeding your family.

We have a whole legion of people in society who want neither to be productive nor self supporting.  And yet they also do not want to be judged.  Sorry, can’t have it both ways.  Judged, yes.  Not perhaps condemned though.

Judgment offers a way to point out problems, and a way to offer solutions.  Condemnation may point out problems but it certainly does nothing to offer solutions.  Do I prefer judgment?  Naturally.